Sometimes, my life feels like it’s at a standstill. I’ve accomplished so much at the age of 24 that I struggle with figuring out what to do next. If you were to ask me what my goals are for this year, I would not be able to tell you. Not because I don’t have any but because I just don’t know what to do next. Being a Capricorn, you would think I’d have this whole year planned out. And to be honest, I once did. However, my life has changed so much in the past couple of months that I’ve accepted that there is no point in planning anything out because nine times out of ten — things will change.
If I can be honest, not knowing what my next step is drives me crazy and gives me the absolute worst anxiety. Why? Because at the age of 24, society expects you to have everything figured out. If you don’t have a degree (or multiple), own a business, or if you’re not instagram famous (seriously) — you really haven’t made it. And if you’re anything like me, sometimes you may actually believe this to be true. If you do, let me share a story with you that just might help you.
For my birthday this year I really wanted to travel. I didn’t want to buy myself anything, I didn’t want to go clubbing — I simply wanted to travel. Especially since traveling was one of my unaccomplished goals from last year. So my boyfriend, Nicholas, and I took a trip to Los Angeles, CA — and let me just say, this trip was full of non-stop adventures. From our layover in Las Vegas, to Universal Studios, to Six Flags, to trying out our very first all Vegan food spot (thank you Uncle Patrick) — I have to say it was the best trip I’ve taken, so far.
Getting to the good stuff now…
During our day at Six Flags, Nick and I were super stoked to ride the insane (and I mean INSANE) roller coasters. I couldn’t remember the last time I had been to an amusement park. So the plan was to ride all the roller coasters twice, if we could. You know, really take it in and get our moneys worth.
Now, if you know me — you know that there is no way you can get me to put my hands up on a roller coaster. There’s just no way. I’m 4’11 and weigh 110 lbs. If I put my hands up, I’m afraid I might fly out and I will never be able to enjoy roller coasters ever again. Nick on the other hand, is all for throwing his hands in the air and letting the roller coaster have full control over his body. He’s pretty crazy, but that’s why I love him.
While we were going up on one of the roller coasters, Nick looks at me (eyes squinted, with the biggest smile) and goes “babe, this time I want you to put your hands up. Just put them up. Nothing is going to happen. You’re going to enjoy it. C’mon, just put your hands up.” In my head, I’m thinking…oh, he’s crazy crazy. I respond to him and try to convince him that if I put my hands up, I might fly out and we don’t want that. He continues to encourage me to put my hands up, and reassures me that nothing is going to happen. In that very moment, I was still a little hesitant. Like I said, I am extremely scared of putting my hands up on roller coasters. You know the bars that are there to hold on to? Yeah, those are my best friends while riding a roller coaster. But Nick insisted I at least give it a shot, so he (forcefully) grabbed my hand as the drop was coming, and made me put them up. I promise you I only had them up for about 5-10 seconds before I grabbed the bars as if my life depended on it.
It wasn’t until we returned home from our trip that I really had a chance to sit down and think about that moment. Nick has always been so positive and upbeat about any and everything. No matter what’s going on in his life, good or bad, he doesn’t let it stop him from living his absolute best life. I have always admired that about him. So when I think back on that moment, here’s my take away:
Life is exactly like a roller coaster. Sounds cliché, but let me explain —
There are going to highs, and there are going to be lows. It’s going to get a little shaky, and you may feel a little bump here and there. And most of the time, you don’t know what’s coming next. But guess what? That’s okay. It’s okay to not have a “next step.” There is no book on how to navigate through life. There are no rules, timelines, or guidelines on how to live your life. So why not throw your hands in the air, let life happen, and Enjoy it to the fullest? In the end, if you come across a challenge, always know that whatever it is — will eventually work itself out. It always does.
Never ever hesitate to try something different. It just might change your life.